I look at my stats. What do I see?
275 blog posts published since March.
I think to myself – now that is some achievement. That is a lot of blog posts. I should feel proud.
And then I think to myself – what exactly does each one of these blog posts represent? Well, give or take the odd missed day or two, each one represents one day that I have been waiting for my liver transplant.
(276 – once I hit the “Publish” button on this one).
That’s a lot of days to be waiting. A lot of days to have this hanging over me – and my family. A lot of days of uncertainty over the future – holidays not booked, businesses given up, impending major operations – and, not forgetting, what I fear most, countless needles trying to find veins once I have had my operation.
But I have coped so far. And I will continue to cope. And I should be grateful that, despite this being the end of the year – I do feel fine.
I suppose therein lies the dichotomy – if I didn’t feel fine, then I may well have received the new liver by now – but there are evidently people in greater need for the few livers available, that I am deemed worthy of simply carrying on.
I would like to end my year of posting by saying a huge Thank You to all of you who have read my blog, continue to read my blog, have commented on it – it is good to know you are out there.
I’d like to wish everyone well – and a big out to those who have received the ultimate gift and are getting used to their new life (@ukcybernaut for example) and to those of you who I have come to know through the world of Twitterland who have had or are waiting – try to be positive.
Happy New Year.
Now there… are 3…. steps to… carry a donor card – ooh, wap wap!
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